I made the decision to discuss weight loss surgery with my GP in March of this year and she encouraged me to go and speak to a surgeon and book in. As my weigh is not anywhere near healthy at the moment and while I do exercise regularly I simply cannot do the same kind of intense exercise I once did, if I am being completely honest I just don't have that belief in myself that I can achieve the size I need to, to fall into "healthy"
I did not agree with WLS as an option for me did not consider it for a long time but have since talked with numerous people who've had the operation and have recommended it to me. I was considering my age, the brokenness of my body and my ultimate desire to be as active as I can as I age and my weight is going to hinder that.
I made the first appointment for May and rescheduled it because I was fearful about the possible consequences and gave myself the same old negative talk that it was a cop out and I needed to do it the " normal" way.
I then rescheduled and was booked in for the first day of my return to work so canceled and did not rebook for almost 2 months while I thought long and hard about why I was doing this and what I hoped it would do.
Anyway, I researched some more and finally had an appointment with a specialist at the end of October, his initial consult was very comfortable and so I booked in for surgery on my 44th birthday next year.
So for the next 11 weeks, I am going to be mindful of changing some of my negative talk, behavior, and attitudes and am going to think about the tool I will have to help me achieve my goal
