Today is Easter Sunday, a seemingly spiritual and important date on the Christian calender, yet monopolised by the chocolate manufacturers/ farmers of the world.
Marketing and production to sell a substance of addiction legally, to celebrate the breaking of slavery and bondage. Seems ironic that people especially parents around the world choose to supply the crack equivalent to their children, willingly feeding the cycle of sugar addiction and potential life long issues that come with it, celebrating freedom and grace.
Why are we led to believe the hype and crap that eating chocolate brings happiness and to continue it generation after generation?
Anyway that's just a side thought for today's post. I am going to be completely honest and open and hope it's received with the intent it is written.
I have really been struggling with who I am/ where I am going ,what I am doing with regard to work/ study life the past few weeks.
Feeling overwhelmed and hopelessly lost, I know that sounds odd, I am 41 and should have a more rooted answer to what is happening with my life but I feel restless like I am still not fully reaching my potential, that I am missing part of the equation.
I know that I am struggling with confidence, being sure in all my ability as a personal trainer. It's not in my knowledge and understanding of exercise and how to achieve results, I find programming is not a problem, there are always things to learn . It's as soon as I get asked for nutritional advice, I just shut down and find it so uncomfortable to talk with confidence about what I know and understand about food. I feel like people must look at me and wonder wtf would she know about any of this, look at the size of her?
I need to overcome/ stop that negative way of thinking, it's effecting my ability to build my business the way I would like.
I find I am quick to refer people on to some of the other trainers in the gym the minute they ask for complex nutritional advice as I do not feel my advice would be taken seriously right or wrong that's how I am feeling.
I love my job and getting to meet different people, I just want to be the best pt/ fitness professional I can be, at the moment I know that's not the case, my own failings in my personal journey are letting me down.
