I started this blog 3 years ago when I discovered clean eating and what I thought would be the answer to allow me to reach my goal size weight successfully lost about 15kg and thought I would def reach my goal within 12 months of starting my blog, never thought I'd be back to worse than square one was then, exercise has been minimal or non existent for the better part of the year, food has been ok at best terrible at worst both lack of food and type at times.
Tomorrow is officially the start of a 12 week program of commitment, not a challenge just a time from of commitment to remain consistent and focused at least 95% of the time.
I have the support of another trainer as my accountability person. the commitment I made with her to kick me up the butt if I don't do the correct amount of eating/ training/ accountability tasks is what I need.
I look forward to being able to write here again and monitor my progress without worrying about scales and measurements. I had them taken but refused to look at them, not because I am embarrassed I know how tight my clothes are but because I didn't want to have a number to work with and know I could cheat myself that's usually what I do and this time I want a different ending to the one where I finish feeling like I could of done better, could of tried harder and just want not good enough.
I am to old and to broken physically and mentally to continue this pattern of abuse of myself both inside and out, I am to old to not allow my body the freedom to function at my best every damn day.
Is it going to be easy def not, will I do anything crazy NO I refuse to be so restrictive with my diet that I cannot maintain it life long or to train ridiculous amounts. I have tried calorie restrictions and excess exercise and the long term is not successful when you cannot maintain it.
Move, nourish, love, care for your whole self.
My goals for the 12 weeks are
1: For the 12 weeks my long term goal is to Lose a substantial amount of body fat, I am aiming for 10% minimum.
2: My goal for the first 60 days is to every day complete rehab for my back/ knees and shoulder.
3: My goal for the first month is to be drinking no more than one cup of coffee a day and increasing my herbal teas.
4: My goal for the first week is to have all the allocated meals at the correct time, prepped and eaten not substituted because something else looks better.
5: My goal for tomorrow is to get through my whole training session, listen to what I am told and finish knowing I gave it everything I had both mental and physical.
thanks for reading.
