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This week has seen my life take off in a new direction and I love it!
I re enrolled to study at a Christian higher education provider, I can hear the groaning but listen for me this is the perfect place, an extension of my faith and gaining an undergraduate degree in a supportive community of like minded folk in a very small setting, close proximity to my house and just a peaceful pleasant place to be.
I started the week enrolled in one community development subject, one core theology/ language based subject and a counselling subject.
Tuesday I had withdrawn from counselling, knowing before I walked into the first scheduled class, this doesn't feel complete, this is not quite right.
I started looking into the options for subjects to combine with the community development major just before break, I really wanted to do no less than 3 units this semester. Nothing in the theology or youth streams was available. I soon realised very quickly the answer was staring at me. I just needed to ask the question and see if the area, the one I yearned to study, deep within me for at least thirty years would be an option.
I am not going to lie, over the course of the next few mintues/ possible hour as I was listening to my current lecturer I was waging in internal war with myself.
As has been the story for a lot of my life, I was trying to talk myself out of seeing if it was an option( I'm too old, too different in appearance, too all over the shop to be successful).
I pushed that self doubt aside and jumped in, I was a little nervous filled with adrenalin and went and spoke to my course adviser. I was trying to be intelligent in explaining how strongly I felt I need to continue with CD but pursue something completely different to the counselling and youth studies I initially thought I would do.
I need to see if I can study EDUCATION alongside it, to complete a second major with the hope of being a teacher in a diverse community here, abroad, or maybe a special ed teacher in the local community.
My course adviser who must think I am a nut job, listened and spoke to the head of the intimate small Education department.
Internally I was still believing he would turn around and look at me and say no sorry, I just don't think it's a good fit for her.
Well I am excited to say, not at all what he said. He was very encouraging, told me he thought we should catch up sometime the next day, so I withdrew from family counselling and enrolled in developmental learning and pedagogies, to start the first class the following afternoon.
Wednesday morning when we sat down to chat, I simply explained how long I'd had the internal desire to be a teacher, yet a feared I just would not be good, or fit in.
The lecturer said he thought it was a great idea and that I would be a welcome addition to the class. So for now I am just going to do what I can, work my hardest to achieve, how exactly that will end I don't know, I am so excited to be on the path of beginning.
I am now a uni student studying community development with a second major and a minor as part of my BA in Education/ English. Whoop whoop
Stay tuned!
